Boo! Im here again to update update lo! ((:Darn, Im like so stuck. Didnt know how to start this post here, lols haha. Okayokay, while waiting for a "girl" to finish his stuff, I came here to blog. I got my training today again, like YES LA! Lols, haha. If you were my loyal reader, you will understand. Lols, hahaha. Today's training, a stressful one. Why? Because out of sudden, alot ppl become a threaten to me. Really. I feel super lousy in the team, even though coach place me with the first team ppl, saying that these are the stronger six players. I still feel very shity.
I believe is because Im place to play a position that I never once in my life play it in any proper match or competition. Why I cant play the usual position? Because Im nothing better than them. Out of six position, I got two that I used to play. But still I cant get it, butbutbut I really think I can fight for it. I ever think whether I want to be in the first team to play the new position or to be in the second team & play my usual position? I know my standard, Im once a volleyball player. & I can do better! But the problem now is, there is only one training per week & the duration is like only 2hrs or less? Damn la, how am I suppose to improve on my skill with this condition. I really need to get the ball sense, touch & everything back la.
Alright, enough of volleyball. People! I wanna share with you all my dream for one of the last few days. Lols, hahaha. Guess what? I dream that someone told me that I will die in this lunar seven month, darn. I was like scare dao la, seriously. Lols, haha. Like since that dream, the next day I start to bring my water bottle to sch. To assure that I at least drink one bottle of plain water, although the bottle is like very small la. But better than nothing right?! I know I sound stupid but I know my own body condition. Im duper weak due to lack of plain water & too much of those "toxic" drinks. Lols, hahaha. Futhermore, I dont eat vegetables, thats like worst! God damn.
I didnt want to die to early. I want to experience every part of my life. From baby to teenager to young adult to adults & to elderly. I reach the stage of young adult. Yes, I want to experience how it feels to be like one adult. I want to have my sweetest boyf to propose to me in the hell romantic & surprise way. I want to wear my wedding gown & walk in with full of applause & greetings from everyone. I want to call my husband, hubby, lao gong, baby or what so ever & have his best pamper to me. I want to have our little house & our car, with me decorating everything. I want to have our babies, thinking of name for them. I want to hear my babies calling me mummy.
I want to teach my children, whether they are rebellious or not, I want to teach them well. I want to have our family outings. I want to see my children to have their babies. I want to hear my grandchildren calling me granny. I want to have my children every month to hand in household money to me when Im old. I want to walk hand in hand with my husband when we are old. I want to accompany him to where ever he goes & take good care of him. This is all what I think, lols hahah. I know this sounds so wonderful right? I might not have the chance to experience all this. But at least theres something else for me to experience. I really want to see all these days come & smile throughout with no sorrow. In conclusion, I DONT WANT DIE SO EARLY! Support me okay? Force me to drink water please!
Okayokay, enough of me dreamings & nonsenses. Lols, hahaha. Theres nothing much to talk abt la. Oh ya, mayb one last thing. Actually in my class, not only my clique ppl is getting lesser. I realise the good-est girl gang also have such situation. LOL! Im like so happy when I ask them whether they agrees to this. They ask me why I sound so happy, because WE CAN SAD TOGETHER LO! Lols, ahahaha! Plus I wont feel so shit when other groups are like this also, hhaha. Yes la! We are like in the same boat now. I can say that I sososo understand their feelings now, hahaha!
Byebyebyeeeeeee people. Off I go, shall reach for the bed first. School tomorrowwwwwwwww~ Meeting loves after school, whahahha! I miss them so much la! =D
Fooling around with those classic glasses, LOL!You ought to learn.
May 2009
