What A Hypocrite..
Friday, I feel so naughty. Because I didnt attend school again. This week, school is a shit. I means the school should have started holiday this week. Then I would have such guiltiness la. But I must say, skipping sch on friday is what I have plan very early of the week. Lols, haha! I should knock my head myself uhs? keke. Okay la, last day of sch mahs~ Plus is like only a three hr sch. No point right? Might as well stay at home sleep. hehehe. I hope this thinking isnt unreasonable. hahaha!
I sleep my day off, then work in the night. Papa went genting again! YES AGAIN! & they are going up again on Christmas! Blahblahblah. But actually also good la. The feeling of loneliness, isnt that bad.. Lols, hahah. Knock off at 10pm luhs, home sweet home. Not long later went out again. Meet up with pig. He fetched me to Night Safari to look for Nehneh. Lols, haha. Nehneh asked me for movie with his tua member earlier. But I rejected him. Because there is 18ppl going for the show. & Im only super close with nehneh! Plus theres now so much stranger there.
Whoever knows Im such a loner, lols haha. I wont that the initiative to talk to others. Thus I rejected him. But later in the night pig asked me out. This time, I have two close one. At least this one walk away I got the other one. Correct?! Lols, haha. So I suggest we go with nehneh's grp. Looked for nehneh & asked him to check if there is seats for us. Lucky enough, there is. So we head over to Cine to join the others. Caught the movie Storm Warriors 2.
Overall, the show isnt that bad la. But is like end up the two warriors fighting each other? Like abit funny lo, lols haha. Butbutbut the lead actors are handsome, haha! Worth it la. Comments from others is that nothing much abt the show lo.. Anyway, the show ends at 4am. Two hr plus, long show. Aftermath, they were suggesting wher to go. Finally they come out with a creepy idea. Which is go what Ko Pi Sua? I dont know if is this translate la. In hokkien.
Is actually a cemetery nearby there? & is a rather old one. This is what I know from them la~ Im not too sure of it also. Didnt join them, because it sounds scary to me. & I dont know if anything will happen if I were to go there. Didnt want anything to happen to myself & let papa worry. So being the world good-est girl, I didnt go. Hahaha. Asked pig to fetch me home. KO very soon when I reached home, lols.
Saturday, I lock myself at home. The whole day. Same goes to Sunday. Im going to decompose soon, lols hahha! Didnt went out at all, not even to get my lunch or dinner. I just skip it if not bro to buy it for me. Is waiting for Sampat to send me my SVE role play script. But till now, no news. & tml is the deadline for it. We got to role play it tml, but we didnt rehearse for it at all. Teacher gave us lots of time but we just didnt cherish it. I guess its gonna be shit tml again. I just hope that she could wake up & comes tml, hoping that Im not there alone? Lols, haha.
I dream of bobby last night~ Lols, I guess Im missing him too much. I dream that he is back in the hse. Running abt happily. Up to my bed when Im sleeping. I dream that I tear when the moment I saw him in the hse again. I hug him tightly in my arms & tear. I dream that I was playing with him happily.. It seems so real that even till now I can remember the scenes of it. I wonder if there is tears rolling down when Im dreaming of it. But afterall, its still a dream. During this two days, without everyone in hse. I fake myself that bobby & sweetie is still around. I tried calling them like how I used to. This time round, no one answer me.. I know Im dumb, Lols!
Anyway, Im sending Weiwei to hospital tml~ I hope she get well soon & dont ever give me trouble again. Because warranty is ending in a few days! Stress~ Okkay, Good night world! ((:
It take years to build a good relationship but everything could be destroy in just a day. I feel so out of their world. Mayb this is my retribution? I dont know. You used to said you feel left out when Im with others. I used to be so close with others, they are with me but not you. Yes, I used to be so close to others but not now.. You got them all now, enjoying. But I can say out loud to myself, I have never left you out when Im with them. Ask yourself again. Did I. Even there is, I got my reasons. Hell, mayb I did. Thus this is what I deserve. I dont know! Let it be.. I will try to do my part, to prevent your so call awkward. I will give you my source of laughter, enjoy.
I will still smile, but mayb not like the past.
I see it all coming, those bad.
I see it all leaving, those loves.