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♥ Thursday, 31 December 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Hurhur, my last post of 2009? Lols, haha. Yes la, 2009 is ending. & we are here to welcome 2010!!

If now I am to start blogging down what happen this few days since the last day that I update you ppl. Then I will go crazy because there is really too much to say. Whats more, I dont think I remember every single thing. Lols, haha. But Im still here to update you ppl as much as I can although I can foresee that this will be a brief one.. But just take it la, lols. Plus I believe my faithful reader more or less know what happening to me this few days. Because Im always with them! haha.

Seriously, I really dont remember much! What I can remember is last week is Hiensianbio's dua li ji. & everyone is busy with it. Including me, lols haha. Im busy being the display there, lols hhaha. Remembering, Jiajie the barbie doll cook for me Ai Xin Ji Dan when I have the sudden craving! Lols, haha. How wonderful? Im just being so pampered when Im with them. That why I love them to the max! Lols, haha.

Christmas Day was our tua's yew keng. Meet up with the barbie doll, robbert & jia wei early in the morning at 5am?! Nope, barbie doll wake me up at 5am! Lols, haha. The night before I slept at 2plus am luhs. But mine is nothing compare with the guys. Because they didnt have a wink of sleep at all! & they got to go over to barbie doll's lion dance troupe to decorate the flower lorry. Then off to yew keng in the afternoon, how fit they are? Lols, haha. Nevertheless, yew keng ends at midnight! & they survive to the end, Clapclap! I also not bad okay! Lols, haha.

Was utterly disappoint with my tua at first due to some issue. But nothing can stop me. I still got my ways, lols haha. I got bestbest a tua's shirt & of course myself one from raynard since he will be trancing & not wearing it. Bestbest got the right size while I got to take raynard's one which is way bigger for me. But got no choice & just take it luhs. Overall, the yew keng was a successful one? So far I didnt heard any negative comments abt it la, so congrats to my tua. Mayb only due to some idiots couldnt make it to our yew keng & make it look less grand then what it suppose to be, but no blame la. They got their reasons, lols haha.

Want to specially point out to the lian hua san tai zi that is there for the yew keng. I superduper love him la. Lols, haha. Super love his smile la, he will look at you & smile widely with the sound of HE HE. Super cute right? Lols, haha. Super nice of him to lend me his weapon to play also lo. Out of sudden he pass me one of his weapon to play with. Then I was happily playing with that & my bestbest say that she want also. So he offer her the spear to play. But when getting off the lorry he stand by my side & ask me want to play the spear? I was like wantwant, lols haha. Then he ask me to pass the metal ring to bestbest & I play with the spear.

But bestbest didnt want to believe me at first, - . - But still I manage to play with the spear la, lols haha. Until the lian hua san tai zi need his weapon to greet other god then we return back to him. If not he just keep say to his toh tao, never mind let her play. Lols, haha. Up the lorry, he pass me the spear again. Ask me to take for him.. Was abit awkward when I was helping him holding his thing also la~ Lols, haha. Because Im like not from his tua & is wearing my tua shirt. End up Im like helping him? Lols, haha. But also shuang dao, haha. Since our Guan yin also dont need us.

I guess the whole yew keng journey Im only super happy with him nia lo, lols haha. If not also quite bored la, haha. I always so love to follow zai zai.. & yes, as usual every year de yew keng also raining de luhs! Make me whole back wet, even my pant are wet la. Horrible, I feel so disgusted so dirty. Lols, haha. & ALSO I GOT BURNED BY JENNY AUNTIE WHICH IS ROBBERT'S MOTHER! Ppl around me saw the wound, super ugly. Im disfigured, )): Lols, hahah. Photos of Dua li ji will be uploaded in the next post bahs. Anyway afterall is all worth it. & everyone did a great job! Hip hip hooray! CHEERS! ((:

Hmmms, then jia toh jiu nothing much la. Bestbest & I got ourselves one table. Yes, two person for one full table. Shiok uhs? Lols, haha. Plus only mayb something happen at our tua lo. Every single one was like so hot temper, scolding around. I guess they really dont have enough sleep or what bahs? Every one is like scolding away.. But its all over. We all enjoy it & have to wait patiently for the next year's big day le lo. But now I dont know if next year I still got the chance to be part of Hiensianbio. No one knows what will happen..

After the big day, follow by ah di's birthday chalet at Chevrons. Nothing much also, Im only just being psycho to go over. Enjoyed myself with them also la. Lols, haha. & I catch a cold there! Ass the chalet! The air con there like no need money de. One living room got two air con, make me sneeze there like hell. Keep sneeze non stop until I catch a cold, Damn it. Down with flu & still got to go work & need to head down to the chalet again, chicken backside enough.. But okay la, get to gather with them also not bad. Lols, haha.

Very soon, its my big day lo! Happy Birthday to myself! Lols, haha. Got to say, the one that I expected to celebrate with me de isnt around & nothing was done or plan for me. But Im still glad that the ones that I didnt think of de actually plan & celebrated for me. I have got lost & also theres gain at the same time. I get to understand & to see true everything & everyone around me. Who are good to me & of course who are not. Deeply appreciate those that got the heart with me. I love them all, ((:

Once again would like to thanks all the people for wishing me a happy birthday. I will keep it deep down in my mind in my heart. & also wishing everyone a Happy New Year, hoping everything goes smoothly for everyone! Lets welcome 2010!! :D

9:53 pm

♥ Thursday, 24 December 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

I didnt want to start blogging again. Although I really have alot of things to share with you ppl what had happen all this while. But I said I wont blog le dont want blog le & I mean it. Why do I have to start blogging end up ppl come asking me back why I blog.

Have the both of you ever think in my shoes? I am to protect one of you. I am to hide myself for one of you. Who is there to protect me? Who is there to think for me? Why do I have to do all this for you two? Im the stupid one that thinks for you all before I think for myself. End up I deserves all this, taking my good for granted. I feel so dumb so stupid. Again & again. Im sick & tired of all those words. Leave me alone then you wont be part of my life then you wont have to worry abt this & that! Both of you got to get yourself clear of what you want! & not like this dragging your love away.

I believe this will be my last post. As promise to update you all with all the pics of my advance birthday celebration from my love ones right? There you go..

Birthday wish!

They start pranking me, - . -

Below are all my beloved, every single one. But I missed out Robbert~ Dont have a pic with him.. But he is still included in my beloved luhs, lols.

I did this for robbert, handsome? LOL HAHA.

My potential entertainer, my loves.

I dont understand why like all got Jiajie's face?!

Only one without him, - . -

Evidence of Hu Jia Jie bully me! LOL HAHA!

Why my face look so cramp? haha.

Ladies.

My family, ((:

Lastly, I would like to wish my readers Merry Christmas & advance Happy New Year! Let stay happy & welcome our new year! ^^

10:40 pm

♥ Saturday, 19 December 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Ppl waiting for my updates? Hurhur, or mayb is I think too much? Because Im like updating for myself only..

Okkay, start off with thurs. I woke up in the morning contact Sampat & meet up with her. Firstly, we went over to Lee kong chian NLB to do some research for our HRA projects. But sad to say, we still didnt started off with a single thing. Because its late when we actually reach there & very soon we got to set off for her job interview at Kovan. & unexpectedly, we saw our classmates there. The bunch of malays, lols. There are times that they are playful but when it comes to serious work they will still make the effort to do it. Goodgood, not like us uhs? haha.

Very soon we left that place & head to Kovan for Sampat's job interview. I believe the person wont call her, but it doesnt matter her also. She didnt have the intention to work there, lols. Aftermath, bugis for shopping! I spend at least 120bucks okay? With all those tops, pant, sandal. etc.. Super alot, my hand is full of shopping bag. Too the max that I feel that its sososo heavy. Since so long when I have such a crazy shopping uhs? Satisfied to the max, but at the same time is poor to the max now.. Lols, haha.

After shopping, we head to balestiar for our long promised bak kut teh. Yesyes, she finally bring me to eat bak kut teh. She has promise me this longlong time ago & this time I really get to eat it le. Yes, it nice of course. Lols, haha. Home sweet home after eating lo.

Thurs, supposingly is a super surprise birthday celebration for me from my tua friend. But end up is not a surprise, lols haha. Because the day before, HuJiaJie told me that he is planning to do a advanced birthday celebration for me & asked me out. Then later he start telling me he love to eat mango then ask me like to eat fruits a not. Talktalktalk, he suddenly ask or chocolate nicer. At first I didnt smell anything. Until I went to bed & start thinking, how is fruits & chocolate link together? Then continue think, more or less I know already.

Thats what make the surprise not to be a surprise anymore. Lols, haha. Whats more? They say going Kbox, more expected what will happen luhs. But actually I got think more when Im on the bed. I thinking if they will prank me or what with those flour? or spray? Lols, haha. I know I think too much jiu think le got prepare then you wont be so shock right?! But anyway, I meet with bestbest at lot 1 for lunch first. Trained to Cine, meanwhile saw jia wei at CCK interchange. Lols, haha. So we went together.

Kpool to look for them then off to kbox. Not long after we settle down, Jiajie WeiQi Gabriel all went out say they going to smoke or toilet luhs? Couldnt remember. Not long bestbest received a call & start whispering to pearlyn. Then they told me they going out also. Make me one person in the room. How can I not think what will happen next?! They came in with a birthday cake & birthday song! Hurhur, after that they ask me why I like not surprise de then why never cry. I was like how you expect me to cry when I know what is happening!? Lols, ahaha.

Okay la, but I know their intention. Its all for my smile & yes Im smiling widewidewide deep in my heart. Lols, haha. Heard from bestbest they still intend to come my hse & everyone surround my bed & wake me up. I told her, lucky this plan fail. If not everyone will saw my ugly side! Lols, haha. But the fact is I really appreciate what they have done for me. We have never try to celebrate each other birthday before. & Im proud to say, Im the first one! Lols, haha. Yes, cant deny that I love them more now. Cant deny that they are part of my close ones now.

Hurhur, anyway we sing sang sung all the way until 8pm. In middle, I got torture by Jiajie. Lols, haha. But thats wher my laughter comes also. Aftermath, head to the kopitiam opposite cine? to have our dinner. Bestbest, pearlyn, gabriel & jiawei left first. While WeiQi, Jiajie & I start eating our dinner there lo. Craving for egg & they satisfied my craving also, how wonderful. Then this Wei Qi did some stupid stunts, head back to cine again then home sweet home. Lols, haha.

Fri, horrible day. I woke up 1plus in the afternoon. Is already not feeling very well le. Super no appetite to eat when someone has already pack chicken rice for my lunch. I drag it until 4plus when I really have to head to work. Then I just eat that less then 5 mouth of rice & throw away all the rest. As usual, then I head to work. Every shit came when I start off with my first patient. I can feel the world spinning, super giddy & the forever nauseous feeling. Until doctor start doing the air flow polishing & I have to be there to assist her.

Then the sight the images in front of me turned out to be like mosaic. I really got the super feel that very soon everything is going to blackout. I leave all the thing down then reach for the back door & head to the basin as fast as I can until I knock on to the tap & I goes vomitting. Those chicken rice are out again. & the taste is really disgusting. I vomit it all out & is equals to the whole day I didnt consume any food at all! I dont know when is the last time I vomit? Like years ago when I got food posioning? But true enough after I vomit I feel slightly better. But very soon I become weak again.

Lucky my mummy arrive in time & saved me. I ask her to buy me sour plum drink beforehand. Then I told her I super not feeling well. So she got to work inside assist the doctor while I really need to rest & stay at the counter. The feeling of exploding headache, is hell. Actually I even have the intention to leave early & seek for a doctor. But clinic is really very busy, if I were to leave mummy will be in dead meat. So I pull myself through the whole night.. & only knock off at 10.30pm.. Knock off & head straight home. Didnt look for a doctor because Im thinking after one sleep I should feel better so forget abt doctor.

Actually I didnt like to see the doctor, I got the fear. Yes, fear.. Which I didnt wish to elaborate more. Home sweet home & KO straight but is cry to sleep because of some unhappy incident. I dont like to fall sick, dont like to feel that when im sick theres no one to concern me, dont like to feel theres no one with me. I dont like & dont love. But forget it, Im still strong again now.

Right, as for today. Im really feeling much better now. At least not to the extent of vomitting again. Only have a headache & feel super weak in the morning. I stay the whole day at home okay! Porrigde for lunch & noodle soup for dinner! & three bottles of plain water for me! CLAPCLAP. Biggest achievement. I didnt touch any cold drinks at all for the whole day! Omg, Im so proud of myself. But Im despo for seaweed shaker fries now, )): ARGHHH.

On the other hand, I receive news from my auntie. Saying that my grandmother's sister's husband passed away this morning. Which is my Yi Po de Husband, call what I forget already? Pardon me, because I dont call him often. But in a easier way to know is my bestbest's grandfather. I didnt know what I could do but I know bestbest is strong enough to take all this.. Deepest condolences to them. Might be going to the funeral tml with my grandparent. Rest in peace..

Okkay, I shall upoad the pics tml. Sorry ppl, but I didnt want my condition to get worst when it suppose to be even better luhs. So stay tuned uhs, Goodnightttttt! Pleasepleaseplease take care people! Dont fall sick, not fun ):

10:31 pm

♥ Tuesday, 15 December 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Updates..

Monday, I spend my wholewhole day in sch. Yes, is holiday now. Yet I still have to go sch? Okay, both sampat & I make the effort back to sch to re-do our role play. Because previously our scores superduper low, 64 only? My first C in my modules? Cantcant, so we request for a redo. I spend the last night to memorise the scripts. One person got to act out two parts. So I have to memorise both scripts for customer & service provider. I swear I almost turn out to have "Ren Ge Fen Lie" You know you know? Im like having two character. So dumb, & was complaining to nehneh luhs. He laughed, even ask me to video down & show him. I told him, if I really video down & show him I will be more stupid.. Right?

I took hrs to memorise all. Only slept at 2plus am. Initially, we are suppose to reach sch at 9am. But I only receive call from sampat saying that herman is in a meeting. & got to change the time to 12.30pm. I was like #%$&!*#&%$*! Because I woke sososo early & has already prepared myself. Ready to leave hse then I get to know change to 12.30pm. The teacher super last min lo! Make me like dont know what I should do. Sleep or what? Lucky my thai cutie worker was there to accompany me. Lols, haha. The one that ate colours to my morning make me smiling like hell. P.S No typo error for the ate. This is what he said, LOL!

Okay, anyway I went to get my mac breakfast. This & that, then leave hse to meet sampat in sch. Again, we waited for my hrs. Because herman says that he is still stuck in the meeting. Head to toh guan to fix my weiwei first lo. Who know? The sony ericsson service center shift already! To jurong point, super sad.. End up going Imm to have lunch for sampat. Thenthen back to sch, continue to wait. I only got to see his face at 4plus? Did our role play everything lo. Isnt a very good one, got a B. But at least is better then a C.. Finish everthing & rush to work..

Knock off at 9plus. Home sweet home. Recieved a call from sampat, I am to accompany her to the DragonBoat Chalet at Kranji Farm Resort. Leave hse at 11plus luhs. Was thinking that I can go there to look for my beloved uncles. But chicken backside, not a single one is there. & as usual I went there to feed mosquito. No one there to spray insect repellent for me, I used to have. So go there looklook talktalk then home sweet home at 1plus. KO at 2plus? Then for dont know what reason I auto wake up to reply the 8texts & miss calls from my thai cutie worker, LOL.

Sleep again at 4plus am. & got wake up by my auntie today at 1plus pm. Was too tired because I wake up early & sleep late yesterday. I bet if my auntie never wake me up I will still be sleeping until 3plus or so. She wake me up at 1plus & told me is already 2plus le, was super kan chiong la. Because I need to go fix weiwei! Then I faster wake up & check the phone, 1plus only! But also late le luhs, haha. Reply sampat then go prepare. Auntie fetch me over to meet her then off to Jurong point!

Bring weiwei to her hospital first. So she's now hospitalize Again, I will miss her.. Lets hope she will be fine & come back soon. & Im thinking if I should extend the warranty for her. Because she really got alot of problem. Then it cost 7oplus bucks for the extension of warranty, bankrupt le la! )): I GOT ALOTALOT OF THINGS TO BUY, I WANT TO GRAB THEM ALL HOME! Sad.. I still want to get my Burberry Wallet, my watch.. & yes, my guess watch right? GOT ONE BLING DROP OUT. Super heartbreak, thats why I got to get a new one~ Aiming the french connection one, but got to wait till I got the money - . - I shall announce myself bankrupt now.

Okkay, anyway back to topic. Out of topic le, lols haha. Hmmms, send weiwei le then shopshop. Thenthenthen to work, knock off at only 10pm. Home sweet home & is now here to blog luhs. Thats abt it luhs. Good night world, THE END!

Love us for what we are.

How would the future look like?
I dont know, we dont know.

11:40 pm

♥ Sunday, 13 December 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

What A Hypocrite..

Friday, I feel so naughty. Because I didnt attend school again. This week, school is a shit. I means the school should have started holiday this week. Then I would have such guiltiness la. But I must say, skipping sch on friday is what I have plan very early of the week. Lols, haha! I should knock my head myself uhs? keke. Okay la, last day of sch mahs~ Plus is like only a three hr sch. No point right? Might as well stay at home sleep. hehehe. I hope this thinking isnt unreasonable. hahaha!

I sleep my day off, then work in the night. Papa went genting again! YES AGAIN! & they are going up again on Christmas! Blahblahblah. But actually also good la. The feeling of loneliness, isnt that bad.. Lols, hahah. Knock off at 10pm luhs, home sweet home. Not long later went out again. Meet up with pig. He fetched me to Night Safari to look for Nehneh. Lols, haha. Nehneh asked me for movie with his tua member earlier. But I rejected him. Because there is 18ppl going for the show. & Im only super close with nehneh! Plus theres now so much stranger there.

Whoever knows Im such a loner, lols haha. I wont that the initiative to talk to others. Thus I rejected him. But later in the night pig asked me out. This time, I have two close one. At least this one walk away I got the other one. Correct?! Lols, haha. So I suggest we go with nehneh's grp. Looked for nehneh & asked him to check if there is seats for us. Lucky enough, there is. So we head over to Cine to join the others. Caught the movie Storm Warriors 2.

Overall, the show isnt that bad la. But is like end up the two warriors fighting each other? Like abit funny lo, lols haha. Butbutbut the lead actors are handsome, haha! Worth it la. Comments from others is that nothing much abt the show lo.. Anyway, the show ends at 4am. Two hr plus, long show. Aftermath, they were suggesting wher to go. Finally they come out with a creepy idea. Which is go what Ko Pi Sua? I dont know if is this translate la. In hokkien.

Is actually a cemetery nearby there? & is a rather old one. This is what I know from them la~ Im not too sure of it also. Didnt join them, because it sounds scary to me. & I dont know if anything will happen if I were to go there. Didnt want anything to happen to myself & let papa worry. So being the world good-est girl, I didnt go. Hahaha. Asked pig to fetch me home. KO very soon when I reached home, lols.

Saturday, I lock myself at home. The whole day. Same goes to Sunday. Im going to decompose soon, lols hahha! Didnt went out at all, not even to get my lunch or dinner. I just skip it if not bro to buy it for me. Is waiting for Sampat to send me my SVE role play script. But till now, no news. & tml is the deadline for it. We got to role play it tml, but we didnt rehearse for it at all. Teacher gave us lots of time but we just didnt cherish it. I guess its gonna be shit tml again. I just hope that she could wake up & comes tml, hoping that Im not there alone? Lols, haha.

I dream of bobby last night~ Lols, I guess Im missing him too much. I dream that he is back in the hse. Running abt happily. Up to my bed when Im sleeping. I dream that I tear when the moment I saw him in the hse again. I hug him tightly in my arms & tear. I dream that I was playing with him happily.. It seems so real that even till now I can remember the scenes of it. I wonder if there is tears rolling down when Im dreaming of it. But afterall, its still a dream. During this two days, without everyone in hse. I fake myself that bobby & sweetie is still around. I tried calling them like how I used to. This time round, no one answer me.. I know Im dumb, Lols!

Anyway, Im sending Weiwei to hospital tml~ I hope she get well soon & dont ever give me trouble again. Because warranty is ending in a few days! Stress~ Okkay, Good night world! ((:

It take years to build a good relationship but everything could be destroy in just a day. I feel so out of their world. Mayb this is my retribution? I dont know. You used to said you feel left out when Im with others. I used to be so close with others, they are with me but not you. Yes, I used to be so close to others but not now.. You got them all now, enjoying. But I can say out loud to myself, I have never left you out when Im with them. Ask yourself again. Did I. Even there is, I got my reasons. Hell, mayb I did. Thus this is what I deserve. I dont know! Let it be.. I will try to do my part, to prevent your so call awkward. I will give you my source of laughter, enjoy.

I will still smile, but mayb not like the past.

I see it all coming, those bad.

I see it all leaving, those loves.

9:06 pm

♥ Thursday, 10 December 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Hurhur, is here to update again! Plus to upload the photos for my cousin's wedding.

Today isnt a good day also. Because stupid me went sch. Going to sch isnt stupid. But is stupid because of being bomb to be there. Yesterday afternoon I told Sampat today must come sch as Darni wants to talk to us or mayb her? abt the training part of our project. She told me she will be there. I believe in her words & got myself to sch. Who knows? When I reached class there isnt a single person from my clique, yes again! Only I present. ALONE AGAIN!

& againagain, theres only 10ppl including myself. The usual ppl. I called sampat, asked her wher is she. As what I expect, she just woke up when I call her. So hell damn @$%(*!%($&%. Dont give me your words when you cant make it. Yenchee xinhui ask me, Charmaine they all never come never tell you de mehs? I was like ....... Speechless. Xi guan jiu hao lo? After first lesson, I went home again. Alone. Go sch show face, not even one hr, I left the sch again. Waste my bus fare my time my beauty sleep. Arghhhhhhh.

Im gonna learn clever now. Care for myself more first. Next time Im not going to inform anyone when Im not attending any lesson. Just dont go only, I care for myself sleep more. & yes, Im not going to sch tml. Not going to be stupid. So I can announce that HOLIDAY LO! Lols, haha. Anyway, back home to have my beauty sleep again then off to work again. Thats my life le. Im getting used to have afternoon nap. Nicenicenice, super. Hahaha.

Something sad to share, holiday is here. I wanted to go chiong for my car prac. But I just went to check for the slots. Veryvery sad to say, theres only one slot for the whole of dec & Jan? Omg, how? Before that I was thinking that I can stay the whole day at BBDC just to go for all the prac session. That was what I think only. Turns out to be shit. My papa saw the booking system, he was like: herh, like that how you go learn. Seriously, I also dont know how. Sad to the max, ))):

Yup, thats abt it lo. Enjoy the pics bahs? Good night world!

Lemon, Honey, Bittergourd, Wasabi & Chilli on biscuits, Lipstick & Love Declaration.

Pretty gown, Pretty Cousin with Pretty Ah ma! HAHA.

Ah ying with Ah Tong(Bride).

This is Caiyun.

I suppose you know who is this? LOL.

Ah Pei.

The wedding grace for sisters.

Even the bride got to take pic for us, haha!

I swear, my wedding I want to wear this also. This is my wish.

I used to think that this is superduper pretty, super love this.

The bride & the groom. Grandparent have been waiting very long for this tea, haha.

End of the day session.

The dinner.

Another pretty gown.

Hairdresser did that hair for me~ Seems too hot for me~ Lols!

Cousins.

Any idea how 大头贴 look like? Lols, ahaha.

Kok Yen & Kok Meng, my cousin ((:

Ah gong! With his brother. His 大哥.

Ah gong's 大哥&五弟.

洪家的男人, LOL HAHAHA.

Lastly, My family.

Im still missing them.
Like hell.

Enjoy your life there
&
Dont give me your fake sympathy.
I dont need that.

11:21 pm