At this moment, Im tearing like a retard. Like a fcuking retard. Because there are some idiots here to bring my dogs away. Yet theres nothing I can do, only hide inside the room & start crying. I dont even have the courage to have a last sight of them, Im just that useless. I know that if Im to go out & send them off I will be crying even worst then I am now, so Im really not that cruel not to have a last sight of you all. Please understand me..宝贝s, definitely I will miss you. You will always be remembered by me. Although Im no longer there to be with you until your death when I will always ask myself what will happen if one day you all are gone.. But please remember me, remember me that loves you & not the one that doesnt wants you. Please dont blame me, Im not feeling good deep down in my heart also. Four years isnt long or either is it short but you two has always been there with me, every single day. Is definitely heart break enough to lose you. Im lost too..
Every corner of this hse are traces of them which Im sure will rake all those memories up. Theres thousand of thing gushing in & out of my mind but I couldnt express all out.. First I lost my complete family, now I lost you two. I know there will be more coming. But I seriously dont know how long I will take to recover from this. But I guess I need somewher else to heal, for sure not in this hse.I know what cause this. & I will forever remember. I didnt blame anyone when people start saying me love my dog dote my dog more then my baby. There are really alot more which I dont wish to bring it up here. Never mind, whatever it is. I must think that is my fault. Because I couldnt take care of them. If I can they can just stay with me. But Im just that useless. Goodbye my loves, once again Im really sorry. I can only hope that you two will remember that Im once your owner. & by hook or crook, theres chances for us to come again I hope you remember me.. Or mayb you should start forgetting us to make your life easier there? ))))))))):
Tears are the words that the heart cant be express.
Its always so painful to send your loves one away.
Goodbye.
May 2009
