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♥ Sunday, 27 September 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

As promised, one last post before I leave Singapore. Yes, Im leaving Singapore in less then 12hrs? 8.30am got to reach airport, I hope I wont be late okay. Shall post regarding this two days luhs.

Sat, went over to Kranji Farm Resort for prawning session again. This time with BBQ, food prepared by our ppl & all. Alot came along but doesnt matters me. Because is not my entertainment. Not a single prawn at first. After that got one then 3 in a row. Not bad uhs? Was superduper happy. 3 in a row, really is within 5mins? Aftermath zero again luhs. But never mind, the 3 in a row is enough to brighten up my day. Had alot of jokes with Bestbest also. Had 18 mosquito bites also! - . - Killer, super killer mosquito. My leg now is full of mosquito bite. Total 18 & is super itch! Argh!

Sun, meet up with Jiajie, gabriel & co super early. Actually is 10.30am at CCK interchange. But someone overslept & make all late. In the end all wait for me, cant blame me. Blame the one that ask me late leave hse. Headed to SamTiongKeng or should I say DouMuGong? Hmmms, Jiajie wanted to decorate the sedan over there. But fail, because he said theres really very limit then theres nothing much he can do about it. So walked to Ten mile Junction, they wanted to play billard? In the end, Jiawei gave wrong information. Closed down already.

Give wrong route also, make us walk super long. Changed venue to BPP. WE walked around there then headed to Timezone. See them play basketball. Overall winner, Jiajie. Win weiqi & jiawei. & I won a Iced milo from the bet of Jiajie & weiqi. Both say lose one treat me drink. So in any way I got free drink, how nice? Gabriel didnt have chance to play then we are leaving already. Because someone is here to fetch us to the yew keng. Yes, today main programme is the yew keng. Qi ling tan's yew keng. Aftermath, DouMugong again. For Jiuwangye, trancing jiuwangye as they are having meeting regarding their Big day.

The moment I reached there, I saw a familiar her. Seem to be her & indeed is her. First time to see her in real person. She's pretty, she's blissful. I envy her & mayb is jealous of her also? I dont know I feel like Im a nobody compared to them. & saw another he during the yew keng. Another he that I dont know how should I face him.. Again, I have thousands of words to say abt this. But Im not allowed to. Im someone that is always to be keep underground to be keep as a secret. Which equals to I can only keep all everything to myself. Its really very tough.. I dont understand why is it always me to be in this stand.

Why Im not the one that could loudly announce my everything? Can ever one day Im the one that I could announce my everything to ppl? I really wish to because you will never understand how tough is it to keep every single shit down. & is EVERY single shit. Am I such a shame to bring up to everyone? Or Im a big fool that you can fool around with? I dont know, only they got the ans. Today is totally screwed up. Looking at every cruel fact. Why ever does the god want me to face the cruel fact. Why cant I enjoy my Bangkok trip? Home sweet home, I guess ppl can see that Im stressing over every shit.

Stressing over the stuffs to pack for my Bangkok trip, stress over Girlf problem. Everything make me fall. But it seems like no one understand me, not even Yq~ Couldnt blame them also because they didnt know whats happening behind the truth. Seriously, I shouldnt have gone for today's yew keng? When I tried to avoid but still I witness the cruel fact. Can anyone teach me what to do? Theres no one - . - Because I cant consult anyone?! Fine, forget it. COL! ))):

Byeeee! Shall go see what I can do~ Because I dont want to sleep too early! I dont bear to leave here. Argh, Im stupid - . - Take good care ppl. Must miss me uhs. SAY THAT YOU MISS ME!

You are killing me with all the torture.

11:11 pm

♥ Saturday, 26 September 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Supposingly, I have alot of things on my mind to blog. But when Im really here to blog I cant think of any? Totally went blank.. Shall try to recall what I want to post initiate.

Andylowguohao called me during one of this days. I didnt ans his call at first cause Im sleeping. Reply him a msg asking if hes hand is itch again thats why call me. He return me a call & I ans. He trying to get me back to CW Dragon Boat Team. Asking me to go back for training & wants me to attend sun sea training. Said that will sponsor me with all those sunblock.. I tried my best to reject~ Jiu keep say will see how again. Hmmms, I know they all want me back.. But jiu~

Im heading to Bangkok soon, very soon. But yet everything is not packed. Not a single shit. Why? Because I dont know where to start! Dont know how to pack. Usually this stuff didnt need me to settle. But now is different. Im going all alone travelling overseas without my papa without my family. To tell you the truth I hate to be independent because it will definitely reflects on how useless I am. Never mind, be it then. I shall rely on ppl when theres ppl for me. Otherwise rely on myself lo, no choice also right? Lols, hhaha.

I wanna confess something~ Confess that ppl around me is all getting my influence! Lols, hahha. Why? Becausebecause they all start their sentence using Jiu! I dont know since when I got this habit & start all my sentence with Jiu. The only thing Im very sure is Im the big master of this creation of talking. Ppl around me will slowly start their word with Jiu also. Then when I realise they got my influence, they will start blame me. Horrible la this ppl, copy me still blame me. & I seriously believe I will start most of my sentence with jiu is because I will tend to jiu very long then use the time to think what I wanna say~ I need time to think mahs! Whoever knows me will understand~ Lols, hahah. But jiu I didnt know ppl around me start to think slow & stupid le! LOL HAHAHHA!

&&& I WANT TO GO NIGHT SAFARI AGAIN! WHO IS WILLING TO BRING ME GO? ))):

Thats all what I can currently think of. Will update again before I leave Singapore okay? Good night ppl!

I swear you are the biggest liar I ever meet.
& Im the biggest fool that you ever encounter.

2:16 am

♥ Wednesday, 23 September 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Hurhurhur, Im still awake now. Again, havent been blogging regularly uhs? Lols, hahha. Please dont blame me okay? I hope you ppl are patience enough to wait for my every post. & Not neglecting my this blog here uhs, lols. Alright, againagain I wont be giving a detailed post on whats happening within the last few days luhs. So sorry regarding this.. Jiu please understand me, thank you. I will share more of this private stuff with my close one rather then here with those unknowns.

Okayokay, last few days have been quite tiring & torture. Lols, haha. Jiu went to take a look at ah boy trancing Lianhuasantaizi. Is really since a long time when I last see his boss, jiu I remember last year lian hua's birthday I bought him a pretty pink maomao hairclip. & yes, is still with him till now. Jiu still quite shuang de, lols hahha. Didnt have chance to see danny trance cause his trancing the next day. Saw rather lots of familiar faces, (:

Theres also Kranji Farm Resort-prawning (I just wanna say I seriously love the two uncle over there because they superb dote me la, ^^ Theres too much to say what they did for me.), love's hse, work, tv, com, weiwei, doggies, baby & sleep! Didnt eat much this few days, dont know why. Monday didnt have any meals only two slices of bread & one bottle of lemon barley for the whole day. Lols, hhaha. Power bahs? Im sure now my appetite become small le~ hehehe.

Thats abt it bahs. Although theres alot of things to say in this few days but jiu I dont want write here la. Lols, haha. Keep it to myself, lalalas! Yesyesyes, theres one thing I can share with you all. Which is today(tuesday) I suppose to have my vball training & the bangkok trip briefing. Butbutbut I didnt managed to wake up, as expected. So monday Mian bao initiate say wanna morning call me. Super good right? Say will spam until I die. Lols, hahha.

In the end, that night weiwei is on slient mode. Lols, hahha. So that superduper cute mian bao spam me until 99MISS CALL! Can you believe?! Is 99! NINETY-NINE! Omg, & I totally dont hear or sense the vibration at all! For all 99 calls, I didnt feel anything. & was so deeply into my sleep. How could I? I cant believe myself until I wake up & check my phone. 99 miss call, unbelievable. First time my phone ever have such exaggerated case. Gosh, I can only say this mian bao here super patient & super cute la.Totally speechless, wake up & quickly apologise. Lols, hahha.

Hurhur, last few days baby & auntie went over to malaysia. To celebrate their hari raya, papa tagged along on sunday. & all came back on monday. & yes, they bought back super duper lots of melon milk la! Lols, hahah! Didnt expect them to buy so much back lo! Auntie say she returning back to malaysia for a wedding dinner again few days later. & shes gonna buy one box back again. Lols, hahha. Shit la, I guess my whole family have been addicted to this drink? Or is it because of me? Auntie also bought back super lots of chewing gums, my favourite one also. hahaha.

Being very nice of my papa went to activate my International Roaming, hes worried abt me when im in Bangkok lo. So when Im over there he can reach me through phone also. Jiu I still decided to leave my phone in Singapore & come back three days later to check. To see how exaggerated can my phone be. Or how slient can it be. Lols, haha. But no need le lo, I can bring it there lo. Ppl you still can contact me through phone luhs. But I guess the charges will be higher? Lols, haha. Jiu see if you all miss me a not lo? hehehe.

& lastly, Im not sure how long can I withstand this kind of treatment. If this wasnt you, I would have put this down long time ago. But I didnt, I dont know why also. Mayb this is what that couldnt be explain. As promised, I will endure this until everything is over. By then, I hope that you really can prove me wrong.. I tried my best, did everything out of my limits, hiding all the tough down to myself, accommodate with your everything.. So if this still doesnt work out, I wont regret. Only prove that we are not meant for.

Havent have chance to take photo. Someone kop one away lo, LOL.

This is nice also, (((: & all is mine! Lols, hahah!

Your beloved ugly, lols hahah.

Theres still times that I miss those days.
How are you?

3:19 am

♥ Saturday, 19 September 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Since so long when I last blog uhs? Jiu I dont know how to start this post le luhs. Everything was so blank. Because theres really too much things. Everyday theres things happening. Things that we cant prevent nor stop it from coming. Hmmms, afterall I can say this few days I gone through the ups & downs la. Lols, hahah. Theres time when Im super happy & also when Im utterly down. & 16/09 might be a date that is worth to be a memorable one, mayb to me. But jiu at least to me it is la, lols. 08/01 is one also.

As usual, I will think alot. Tons & tons of things will went through my mind, every single reasonable thing. I think abt how I would want my future car to look like. I think abt how the future will be. Think abt what will happen next. Think abt what are they doing. Jiu aiya, I will think this & that la. Lols, hahha. I will think whatever I can think of. I dont know whether this is right or wrong. But jiu think more better mahs, when it really happens you will know how to handle it. hehehe.

Anyway, Im not going to post much abt what happen within this few days la. Theres too much things to talk abt. As long as I rememeber jiu hao. A brief one okay? Theres Kranji Farm Resort-prawning, work, volleyball training, fetch weiwei back, Chinatown-Stringray!, pioneer bball court, love's hse, grandfather's birthday dinner, eat, sleep, com, tv, baby & doggie. Thats all bahs? Hopefully i listed out all, lols hahha. Thats what I can rememeber so far. Theres still more programme coming la, lols.

& this few days I realise outside theres really alot of ppl reading my this blog here. Jiu I dont know how they found their way here. But I got to say power la, lols. That is part of the reason why I didnt blog everyday le la & blog it without elaborating anything le~ Because I dont know what is allowed in this blog what is not allowed anymore. I dont know how generous I am to let others know my things. I dont know how generous is others to accept this blog here. I dont know how this blog will provoke or let ppl misunderstand whatever it is here. I dont know how I should express my feeling here. Dont know whether I can or not. Jiu Im like planting a bomb in my blog? LOL!

hmmms, whats more to talk abt? Yes, Im going over to bangkok soon, hohoho. Together with my volleyball mates. I seriously think it will be a fun trip. When I think of how joker can those guys be. How stupid can my sampat be. Lols, hahah! There will be briefing on the trip on next tues. But sampat wont be joining because she will be away for her sweetest genting trip bahs? Lols, hahha. But never mind, I have got my mian bao the safety underwear. LOL. Yeahyeah, awaiting for the trip to come!

Hurhurhur, okay. Serious time. This few days Im lucky to have sampat with me to go through my up & downs la. Shes with me help me crack head on how to handle the problems, giving me suggestion, being my listening ears, got me my DESIRE disc-hearty paws, accompany me whenever I need her. We have shared alot of our stuffs our thinking our problems. But I think my one more la~ Lols, hahha. Jiu Im abit guilty that I fan her so much la, bu hao yi si oh. But I just want to tell you how much I love you la. & how thankful I have towards you. Yesyes, Im again blissful with her. Blissful with all the dote & the love, Thank you.

Shes to be treated with the fullest love, dote & care that you could ever give.
Because if you ever know her, this will be the one shes looking for.

Dont ever take me for granted & fool me.

12:47 am

♥ Saturday, 12 September 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

- 11Sept ; Friday

Woke up early today oh, 12plus. Consider early lo. Hmmms, online as usual thenthen I get to realise something. Something that make my mood goes all the way down again. Something that she hopes that I dont tell anyone. I dont know what to do but to keep it to myself again, - . - I believe she is still reading my blog.. Jiu, will see what she wants & needs bahs. I will try my best to help you & ans all your questions over there.. & pardon me for not texting you through phone instead, sorry.

Anyway, I slack my day off. Until 5.30 work as usual. Nothing much abt work today luhs. Knock off & headed home.

Home with a confused mind again. Everything comes together, I dont know why. But again, this time is another pile of lies bahs. When I choose to believe this time but it ended off again like this. I dont know what to say.. Can I stop recieving such treatment! When I feel like Im a big fool!

Shes the Biggest Fool!

Is it true that the good ones
is always recieving the bad ones?

While the bad ones

is always receiving the good ones?

4:38 pm

♥

Kawaii-Ness ♥

- 10Sept ; Thursday

Woke up in the afternoon. Didnt have a good sleep, due to the practical that I having later on. Have been keep waking up in the middle of the night to check out the time, super shag. Prepare myself & went to BBDC. Reach there on time, somehow I think I did something bad. There suppose to have a zebra crossing for me to cross to the circuit la. But until I reach the middle of the road then I realise there a zebra crossing, super embarrass la. But jiu~ I cross to the middle liao! What to do, next time I will use the zebra crossing lo..

Okay, found my car & the instructor. This time round this instructor is much better than the last one. This really teach me step by step, is really good luhs~ Although he like uncleuncle then blurblur one. But jiu we two blurblur one never mind la! Lols, hahha. I really enjoy this practical, I manage to drive around the circuit! Round & round, left & right, turning & turning, hohoho. Jiu reall shuang dao la. I hope my next practical is still him.. But till now I havent book the next practical, because stupid me forget to top up money to my acc! When I keep remind myself on that day to do so. In the end I still forget, chey. Stupid me.

Im not sure how much I cleared today because dont really dare to ask him la, later sad dao again or what.. Lols, hahah. Jiu slowly learn one by one. After lesson, bused home. Theres this guy I think I saw him in the same bus with me to BBDC & then the same guy took the same bus home also. Firstly, this guy step on my sandal when boarding the bus. Later on he accidentally touch my hand. After that, the reckless bus driver brake suddenly & I fall onto him. Super ps de luhs. But lucky we both never say anything or what luhs, lols.

Home sweet home, play with baby. Then off to pack dinner for myself. Thenthen prepare to kaki bukit for some serious matter. As usual the same co. Bestbest, babu, ah peng, ah bao & etc la. Jiu even some KPOs tends to follow ah peng. Was thinking now at heinsianbio need to see her face. Even go kaki bukit also need to see her face, super bu shuang. Was discussing with auntie, papa & bestbest her bad. Is not that we want to gossip or what, is what she did is really atrocious. We are just stating the fact, but like what auntie said. The mouth grow on her face what can we do. Let her say lo..

Aftermath, headed to Punggol. Was actually telling papa that I didnt want to go because wouldnt want have another min to see her face. Butbut auntie wants to go seesee, so follow lo no choice. Reached there, feel super familiar. Superduper. Yup, I remember the place. & I seriously dont know that we are heading to this jetty here. The place is where a stupid bring me go before de the place where the stupid tell me theres different kind of police in singapore. Headed to the jetty to reminisce? Lols, hahha. Jiu take a look at the beautiful night scenery. The first time I went there with the stupid is on daytime. Night time is prettier but with alot of ppl there fishing jiu not romantic liao, diaox. Daytime lesser ppl, lols.

Bestbest & I was at the jetty while the rest were at the shore doing their stuffs. I always remember I shouted loudly byebye to those ppl on boat heading to Pulau Ubin their outward bound training! Lols, hahh. Okayokay, after awhile there one guy walking towards us. Called me, & asked if his friend can have my num. His friend in white. Saying make friends only. My first reaction was No. Dont want. Jiu at there keep No & dont want lo. Then turn back to my beautiful scenery thenthen he went off. Lols, hahah.

When the rest of the ppl settle their stuff & we was to leave. We walk pass them, they were all one by one saying byebye. Didnt ans or reply them la, jiu just walk la. Think they follow us up to the stairs then loiter at the carpark also when Im already inside the car jiu dont care them la. Aftermath, home sweet home lo.

If you were to remember where is here.
Ppl, you all can check out the day scenery at the older post ((:

Seriously, we dont welcome you.
No one will,

because you dont look good in the inner.

3:56 pm

♥ Thursday, 10 September 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

I have just sent Weiwei to the service center.. Shes now currently hospitalised.. At least one to two week. Hmmms, days without weiwei by my side will be so different~ Definitely I will miss her, but shes just too "Fei"(useless) to me if I continue not to send her to the service center. Jiu, tolerate abit lo~ Really hope this time round they can totally heal fix hao her.. If not I have to survive with her for another one year before my contract ends with her.

Sampat accompany me to bring weiwei to the service center la~ Okay, I did mention I want to be independent & bring her to fix alone right? Okayokay, didnt accomplish that. Fail, Jiu I know I failure la. Anyway, I spent my 09sept09 with sampat. Lols, hahah. We use the day to settle all our stuffs la. Although theres still alot more to come, but slowly la. We will finish it one by one, lols. Thats all bahs..

Yesyes, Im having my second practical tml afternoon. Super worried & scare.. I dont know why. Ppl tends to be very enthu abt their practical lessons~ But seriously Im not, in fact Im scare rather than to be enthu excited or whatsoever. Im worried I might not perform well in front of the instructor. Or act stupidly in front of them. Im fear of the practical. Yes, I can use the word, fear. Jiu, alone de me super lousy bahs? Hurhurhur..

Theres time when

I really look down on myself..

1:28 am

♥ Tuesday, 8 September 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Okay, Im here to annouce. Im officially on holiday lo! Finally the long awaited holiday is here& finally the torturing exams are over. Lols, hahah. Shall update my last few days happening yeah? But seriously I couldnt remember much also~ haha.

All I can remember is I mugging very hard for my exams? Plus is at the very last few days before the exams commence.

I can remember auntie went malaysia, & being super good of her to get me the Pokka Melon Milk over there. Cans & packets. Yes, packets. Those big size one oh, lols hahha. Super nice of her~ She said that she has been seeing me buying this canned drink home & seems to be I dont bear to drink it. Lols, hahha. Becausebecause usually whenever I have sweet drinks in the fridge I will definitely settle it within a few days as I replace those drinks for my plain water. But particular to this drink I never~

See this before see this before?! Hahahha.

I can remember Jiahao being super joker of him to write some sweet words & show it to me. Lols, hahha. Mayb I should say stupid words la, lols ahhah. But he really do have sweet one which I see before. Words written on a piece of folded paper like, Does your legs feel tired? Then you will have to ans Yes or No. Thenthen he will flip to the other side which shows, Because you have been running around in my dreams. Lols, hahha! Theres one more! It goes like this, You are a robber! People tend to ask why~ The other side of paper, Because you rob my heart! Cock bahs? Lols, hahah.

The last part is 不见不spread. Is actually trying to say 不见不散, LOL.

LOL, HAHAH.

I can remember Im on msn with Da ge, Joel discussing our BSE our POA. Super nice of him to teach me to asked me study & not to be lazy & alotalot more. He really treats the four of us like princess. When he will be seem more worried for our papers our project my practical then I do worried for mine.. Super thanks to him~ He might not see this, but in my heart Im super grateful to him to have him as my classmate.

& also super big thanks to Da jie, Alicia. Shes also another one like da ge that cares for us alot. When she so worried that we wont be able to woke on time for the paper. She text us & called us to make sure we are awake whenwhenwhen we didnt asked for it. Sometimes this small little things really sweetens my heart out. Is just those small little things, that I will specially look out for. Because that will shows your love..

These are mainly the things that I would like to express out luhs, heheh. Last few days I should be mugging hard for my papers. Butbut I went out on the Saturday. Was supposingly going Yew Keng with Jiajie & co. Was really all planned & jiajie robbert already ask me to go five days ago. Butbutbut last min Jiawei told Jiajie the lorry might not have enough space. Which is somehow hinting that I shouldnt go la? So I didnt went for the yew keng.

Instead, I went to Kranji Farm resort for our tua's chalet cum BBQ. The plan was actually girls stay at the chalet while the guys go for the yew keng & hien kio. In the end, everything was carried out as planned. I didnt get to go to the yew keng, sad dao.. Whats more, after they finish their yew keng. They come back & tell me whowhowho got go but I didnt. More sad dao. But think back, lucky I didnt go.. Because of some reason la~ Which I dont want to mention out. I believe if I went, the both of us will feel awkward.. So somehow or rather, alright la! Lols, hahah.

Having the entertainments from Jiajie & robbert & bestbest & co is always so funny. Having Bestbest, Jiajie & robbert's sweetest treatment is always so shuang. Lols, hahah. Im always so "Fei"(Useless! Not fat ar! In case you get the wrong idea, lols) la. Anyway, thanks robbert for the ice cream treat also. Lols, hahah. & his super lucky de good lucks for my exams. Thank you all!

Exams, both BSE & POA papers are easy. At least to me, I seriously think it is easy. But I have made alot of mistakes in the BSE paper, some stupid mistakes. Which I think I might not score for it. Whereas, POA.. I manage to tally the amounts for the questions. Was superduper happy. But I realise I didnt do my ledger acc for the last part of petty cash book question. Abit naive & stupid de me mistaken that I dont have to balance of the petty cash book when the question is asking me not to balance off the ledger, - . - Never mind, lucky 4marks only ((:

Lastly, I seriously hope everything goes well & smoothly for you. It hurts me hearing upon you having this & that ungood. I dont know what can be done to make it better but.. I dont know.. Dont know what I can do, dont know what to do. I guess the only thing I know is Im not in your mind, those words are all lies & Im not the one you want. I understand why, that is also why I didnt dare to ask more from you. Always being the one awaiting for your presence in my daily life. I have thousands & thousands of words to say abt our relationship but Im to keep it to myself only. This is the only thing that I always know, but in any circumstances I still wish for the best to you..

As long as you are happy.

It doesnt matters if Im
crying alone at the corner..

11:29 pm

♥

Kawaii-Ness ♥

Somehow this song describes our relationship..

爱上你那时爱到不像话
后来想尽办法忘掉
到最后我就合上嘴巴
多说想对自己撒谎
星空下说永恒额头上的吻
你双手将我环绕
未来即便它是一个问号
也能对自己炫耀

有一句话再也都听不到
那些过往只好放在心上
你爱我太美好时间会知道
怎样去熬成一句动人的话

有一句话再也都听不到
那些过往让它自己燃烧
我爱你太美好时间会知道
怎样去熬成动人的一句话

记忆里说我们相同的体温
一想到就不会冷
未来永远都是一个问号
也是一种天荒地老

有一句话再也听不到
那些过往让它自己燃烧
我爱你太美好时间会知道
怎样去熬成动人的一句话

这是一种成长还是一种逞强
我的寂寞很善良陪我到任何地方

有一句话再也都听不到
那些过往只好放在心上
你爱我太美好时间会知道
怎样去熬成一句动人的话

有一句话再也都听不到
那些过往越呼吸越明亮
我爱你太美好时间它一定会
把它熬成世上最动人的话

1.11am, Imy

1:11 am

♥ Tuesday, 1 September 2009

Kawaii-Ness ♥

My first car practical today! I can say is a horrible one. Throughout the session Im like a stupid la, this dont know that dont know. I seriously wonder how I passed my BTT & FTT~ Okay, even the instructor asked me this. He said "Ehhs, you got passed your advanced de mahs?" Gosh, super de la. I didnt have the face to tell me I all one go passed de luhs. Jiu really super diao la.

Im lucky because today's instructor is a nice one la. Abit young one, then abt know how to cock la. Lols, hahha. He was like saying his leg "suan" le, your turn to drive give you "suan" then my turn to rest. Then he end with a "I step dao lemon la. Thats why "suan"." Lols, hahhaha! I was like orh okayokay~ Lols, hahha. Hes good la, I know this is not to let me anxious or what lo.

Anyway, this lesson I only cleared stage 1.1 & 1.2 Super shit uhs? I know also la~ The instructor dont wanna pass me 1.3 so no choice lo. Ask me go back practise more. Is quite demoralise after I finished the first lesson la. Is like Im all the way very smooth for my theory. Now practical is the part wher I will die flat. I seriously need time to think what to do next, I need to coordinates all the legs, hands, ears & eyes. Almost everything that can be use is use at a time.

Whoever knows me, knows that Im slow. How am I suppose to coordinate all those things together!? Im now already struggling with the clutch, brake, accelerator, gear & handbrakes le la. Howhowhow am I going to survive for the rest of the stages?! Add on to it, I havent book my next lesson! When the instructor say I must fast go book otherwise I will forget everything. Omgomg, see how horrible terrible I am.

I ever think of giving up okay. I seriously thought of that.. Or mayb changing it to class 3 rather then 3c.. Butbutbut jiu.. Aiya, I dont know la. I believe I diedie dont want change to auto one I also no choice must learn must get hold of manual cars right?! Slowlyslowly, I will learn how to divert my attention to many different areas & is able to control all. I will I will okay? Anyone willing to give me additional coaching also? Sigh~

Alright, aftermath meet up with bestbest at Jurong east. Head to Lavender to collect my passport, coincidence saw Qian nian lao yao there also. Lols, hahha. Jiu really very Qiao la. Hes there to collect his passport but due to his stupidity he couldnt take. LOL! Then bugis, shopping. Bought a top, slipper & a belt. Out of three item, I have two same with bestbest - . - Jiu, I like de she also like. End up no choice lo.

Leave Bugis around 5pm, back to choa chu kang. Workworkwork. Before work I went in Lot 1 to get the drink that bro bought yesterday. But end up I make a fool out of myself, stupid again. Dont want to elaborate more la. Anyway, I saw the Pokka melon milk vending machine outside Lot 1 le. Lols, hahha. Indeed there also have one~ So obvious la, is difficult not to let ppl see bahs? Jiu mayb next time I got the craving can ownself bused to Lot 1 to get it lo, hahha.

Home sweet home at 9plus. Is hungry now but not going to eat. Because no one wants to cook with me, eat with me, wash with me~ Lols, jiu sleep le wont feel the hunger le right!? (((:

Should I should I post my old passport photo pic? I think that was like 10years old de me? Lols, hahah. Should I should I?

I dont know why I have purple lip, - . -
I swear theres no lip gloss or whateverever thingy on it.

Ppl is starting to disappear in my life.
One by one, day by day..

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